I am watching it snow and I’ve got a cold. It must be
November. I haven’t ridden my bike in 3 days, and do not intend to before next
week. The only thing I'm planning to do is drink tea, sit next to the fire and nap.
Then I'll make a whiskey soda, dinner with my friends and resume sitting next to
the fire. Tuesday I left my house for a total of 45min to get groceries. I might go to
some hot springs tonight… that’s assuming I don’t start the napping thing at
3pm on my couch and just migrate to my bed for the night when I wake up. It
must be my off-season. I’m savoring this right now, I only get a handful of
days off every year.
After Marathon Nationals in September I continued to train,
anticipating a trip to Michigan for Iceman Cometh. It was looking good until
about 10 days before the race, I still had good fitness, and after a month at home I had begun repairing my shattered head. But some logistical walls came up and I
didn’t end up making the trip, which was certainly a disappointment. Instead, I
rode in a silent Yellowstone Park Saturday with Marshall Opel and the rest of
the Montana peloton (meaning a buffalo herd), and Sunday I went out with Sophie (Pete’s
sister…) to ride the Continental Divide Trail. Which is
absolutely one of the most enjoyable trails I’ve ever ridden... Good company
helps. It was hardly a compromise, but instead another incredible weekend in what seems
like a brilliant series of weekends I’ve had since getting back to Bozeman.
There’s been a lot of that happening in my life really… the
whole humility thing. Everywhere I turn, I run into friends I haven’t seen in
months, all of whom are still the intelligent, good, honest, exciting, comic,
adventurous, loving folks I remember them to be. I find myself surrounded by
brilliant people and things to do. Many are new and all of whom I appreciate so
so much. This is stuff that makes a life.
And I feel like that’s what I’ve been trying to get good at
again… Life. I’ve had to reestablish myself here after a season away. I’ve had to find a meaningful
routine, and reciprocate to the people who give me so much. I think I’m finding
various degrees of success with the thing as a whole. Its kind of been a grand
jump into the ocean, some of the waves I’ve ridden pretty well, and others with
a little less grace and triumph. I am happy here in Bozeman again, I can’t
really see myself being anywhere else… and although my heartstrings are being
pulled, it’s not by the allure of something or somewhere else as they have in
the past. Probably what’s most telling is that the snow falling outside my
window is my signal that its time to start training again soon, and I’m
smiling.
You mean your queer season?
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